jaja was very angry that i kana scolded very fiercely by sis..and he's very angry tt my sis scold me just because handphone radiation is very high..will kill alot of cells..esp at nite..and when chatting too long on the phone..he wanted to speak to my sis..and he went out of the house straight away and wanted to come my house to confront with my sis..i stopped him..cos i noe things will turn out ugly..he's really very very angry..maybe he feels that he couldn't do anything when my sis was scolding me cos he called..i can really feel tat he's 心疼about me..busy until don even have time to meet up le..talk on the phone oso cannot..and kana scolded somemore.. i stopped him from coming by saying i wana cry le..he cannot do anything but to go back home..and he's still very angry that no more how i tried to simmer down stil no use..i'm really sorry about that..it's not the first time sis scold le..scold alot of time until i cry le..i did try to retaliate but not powerful enuff..n he really wanted to quarrel with my sis de..but i try to stop him..even if he come my house i'll will til sis not at home den let him come..things will really turn out ugly if they quarrel..

and after awhile..without saying anything after going offline for awhile..he sent me a song jus now..爱很简单...i immediately jus tear drop..cos the lyrics is jus like wad we are now..u noe..last time i always imagining it's tao ze singing to me..but dono y at this point of time i can feel that he's the one singing to me..i'm truly sorry to make you angry..i din meant to make u tat angry..

Bad dream

Had a very very bad dream that seems very real..it started from yesterday when i was meeting my best friend at the sakae for dinner...

it comes with a call when i rejected some duties at the temple..cos it's on sat nite n i might be going out with old folks home frenz for movie..which i'm really going to do that on sat..den my family say shdn't reject when u're free..so make an effort to go..but end up when i wanted to go temple the lesson is over..all seems so real..and they're like nagging me for not going..

den i went to meet bel..and he was on his roller blades..wearing singlet and very very short shorts..which all his hidden tatoos could be seen..and he was like still smoking..den i ask y he smoke..he say social smoker ma..nt always ma..and he feels ok bout it..

i saw le i was so angry..den i ran away as usual..den he was like chasing me aft he was back to his normal clothes..i was like really sad about it..in the dreamz..i was crying..really crying very painfullyas i was running down the stairs of some shopping centres..and i was hiding away from him don let him find me..but he always manage to chase me..n i say i've nth to talk to him and don chase anymore..i don wana listen to anything..as he was like trying to explain as he feels he din do anything wrong..

den as usual..when sad or angry i will not listen in any words..den he very frustrated..den say how come always talk about break up..den he very sianz about it..and i woke up when my alarm rings..i dono wad will happen if my alarm doesn't ring..

i was so sad about the dream..maybe it's jus wad i'm afraid of that will come true..maybe i scared if there's any hidden things i dono..tt's y i fear..and these few days..maybe feel too xing fu..had good frenz to go out and had a nice chat..our r/l more and more ok for me to worry bout..sis don nag so much bout me toking on the phone..heard less quarrel in the family as time spent at home is lesser..tt's y feel quite happy bout my life now..tt inside me..i had that fear that was i see may not be the truth..cos i'm jus too used to worry bout stuff..family..frenz..rl..and these days i'm nt worrying about anythin at all..tt's y ba..

aft the dream i immediately call jaja and tell him bout it..he woke up and answer my call thou i noe he's tired..and still sleeping..n i noe he's nt the bad jaja in the dream..at least i noe he'll be there when i needed him..

there's still the sweetness feeling in the air..thou i'm a little troubled..which cos me not to have enuff sleep..jaja's timetable is the same as mine today...we can always see each other running in and out of classroom for lesson.(cos our classroom is jus opposite each other)..den going for pe lesson...i went up to the class to fetch dem..end up they're not there..and realise they're stil in the canteen..den quickly rush down to pick them up..den i tink jaja oso wil forget to pick his students up..den jus nice saw jaja also running up to his pe class..den told him need to pick them up from canteen..den he jus realise it and gave me a "ya hor"..den quickly dono run where liao..and i was also running..den pe time can see wad he's doing with his class..and wad i doing with my class..very funny one de la..

den jaja also say that too..both busy together at the same time..and the thing is can always like meet each other somewhere in the school..in the assembly..in the classroom..in the staffroom..cos timetable almost the same..den he teach some of my students..and i teach some of his..busy together lo..if free oso free tgt lo..

but i think he's more busy..kana shoot alot of arrows even when he come down now..maybe come down jus to shoot him more arrows..siao liao..aft listening to his schedule..packed until siao..buay ta han..i oso dono how to help him cos i dono anything of his..eee..so crap..

sweetness is still in the air..

ppl in the school start to know that we're together..bcos one of the colleagues added me to her facebook..and actually wanted to intro boy friends to me de..but end up she saw the tagged photos of the batam trip..den went to ask him..and more and more ppl knew about us..so he was asking if can detag the photos or not...

i dono..i tot it's a tedious thing to go find out all the tagged photos to detag them..and need to be detagged by ppl who posted..so i jus say it's tedious..and i feel asking ppl to undo them is wasting their precious effort to upload them up and tagging them..den i oso find it very xin ku to hide..so i jus say if really wana 公私分明 100% den jus break lo..and i don like ppl to like waste their effort again to detag the photos jus for the sake tt don wana let sch ppl now we tgt..he accepted it..but the thing is i stil feel detag is better..and he's trying hard to explain to me don need to detag cos he noe my reason and stand le...and he's so frustrated until he type until some of the keyboard figuring drop out cos he slammed the keyboard..oh no..it's not that i wana open..it's jus difficult to hide..den he say wana open..but i scared will drag him down or sth..like ppl threatening him using this as a ba2 bing3..sigh..dono la..too tired to type le..

end of 2008

thou jaja woke up very late today..we still manage to go for hiking..where we went ah..hmm..we went vivo first..den from dere we walk all the way to henderson wave..hee..it was not quite long la..jus tt the steps seems to make us a little out of breathe..we walk and stop a little to see some views...

we do have some rewards..one big spider..and a criket..hee..saw it?

we din went out for countdown la..cos there'l be lotsa ppl squeezing with each other..these is one of the few years which i din go out for countdown..hee..but nvm la..stay at home lo..

feel that we're gettig closer and closer..maybe bcos he's oso a p2 form teacher..same as me..even the timetable oso about the same..teach chinese..cme..pe..and our classroom is jus opposite each other..so cute..but both of us think it's good that our tables are not beside each other..sometimes some difference and distance away will be good too..as we're both first time being a form teacher..we can always remind each other wad to do..this and that..he's the convenor of cme..while i'm the convenor of pe..we have our own scheme of work to do..things to settle..tt time he did ask me.."i come down to pm session leh..u happy or not.." ha..actualy i'm oredi used to it le la..jus let natural take its course lo..no matter wad it'll be the same for me..i think he's oso oredi "see through" le..jus work hard and do our part can le..

both of us hope that we'll both be happy no matter wad we're doing..when and where..happy can le..hope this happiness will maintain throughout 2009..

today in the canteen eating..we've been laughed by one of the teachers that we're wearing couple outfit..aiyo..every wed i'll be wearing my pe attire cos i teaching pe ma..while jaja make it a sports day to play sports with the kids or teachers..den coincidentally in all black outfit and mainly white shoes..wad's the prob..but we suspect maybe they knew..cos could see a cheeky smile on the teacher's face..hmm..

went for jap lesson with jaja today at the cc..as usual..he's always busy with things here and dere like nt paying attention..while i was trying to be attentive..he keep writing the jap words in chinese strokes..and comparing it with chinese..told him it's slightly different den he stil have his own way of thinking and learning la..up to him..like others..he tend to pop his head over to my notes and see wad i scribble..hee..will practice de..

today i'm not carrying one bag..and he thot my bag was light..end up when my bag was dropping off my shoulder he try to help me shift my bag..den he notice it's very heavy..and said.."aiyo..y u bring a stone out.." bo bian ma..suddenly they say wana observe and film my lesson tmr..so last min gotta go home prepare lo..den end up from p1 class change to p2...teach tang poem somemore..wan me to die ah..even thou it's jus 5 min..i stress until jus sit on my chair during free period and did nth..cos wad really thinking hard of wad to do..and was laughing..kee siao..den hor..went to jaja's hse to take sth..his mum was also laughing away when she saw me..i dono y she keeps laughing..watch tv oso laugh..and i can sense she was looking at me most of the time..and talking to dad..keep laughing leh..wad's there to laugh..hmm..hee..

halloween safari

went to night safari some time ago..first timer..and yet..we took the halloween train..i think if night safari don take the train..u won get to see much of the animals..cos aft that we went to walk by ourselves..ther isn't really much to see unless a close meeting with tiger..and saw the eyes..it looks so lively..tt's wad makes it look fierce..and not really because it's fierce..

anyway..we went onto the train..there are diff guides in diff costumes..this one looks like a china doll..and there are many other moving figures trying to scare us along the way..

and this is some of the poprs they put along the way..some are real man show..

quite gross ya..so i jus put a few...

anyway..along the way when we're walking on our own..can hear lotsa screams here and dere..trying to scare each other..esp the guys..me and jaja ah..trying to scare each other too..lol..ok la..he's more brave den me la..some even trip and fell lo..too over le..

as it happens quite some time liao..some details oso forget oredi..hee..

den we went for the night show..saw some other animals..ok la..still a very good one..no insect bite or anything..hee..

had a lovely nite with jaja..