Bad dream

Had a very very bad dream that seems very real..it started from yesterday when i was meeting my best friend at the sakae for dinner...

it comes with a call when i rejected some duties at the temple..cos it's on sat nite n i might be going out with old folks home frenz for movie..which i'm really going to do that on sat..den my family say shdn't reject when u're free..so make an effort to go..but end up when i wanted to go temple the lesson is over..all seems so real..and they're like nagging me for not going..

den i went to meet bel..and he was on his roller blades..wearing singlet and very very short shorts..which all his hidden tatoos could be seen..and he was like still smoking..den i ask y he smoke..he say social smoker ma..nt always ma..and he feels ok bout it..

i saw le i was so angry..den i ran away as usual..den he was like chasing me aft he was back to his normal clothes..i was like really sad about it..in the dreamz..i was crying..really crying very painfullyas i was running down the stairs of some shopping centres..and i was hiding away from him don let him find me..but he always manage to chase me..n i say i've nth to talk to him and don chase anymore..i don wana listen to anything..as he was like trying to explain as he feels he din do anything wrong..

den as usual..when sad or angry i will not listen in any words..den he very frustrated..den say how come always talk about break up..den he very sianz about it..and i woke up when my alarm rings..i dono wad will happen if my alarm doesn't ring..

i was so sad about the dream..maybe it's jus wad i'm afraid of that will come true..maybe i scared if there's any hidden things i dono..tt's y i fear..and these few days..maybe feel too xing fu..had good frenz to go out and had a nice chat..our r/l more and more ok for me to worry bout..sis don nag so much bout me toking on the phone..heard less quarrel in the family as time spent at home is lesser..tt's y feel quite happy bout my life now..tt inside me..i had that fear that was i see may not be the truth..cos i'm jus too used to worry bout stuff..family..frenz..rl..and these days i'm nt worrying about anythin at all..tt's y ba..

aft the dream i immediately call jaja and tell him bout it..he woke up and answer my call thou i noe he's tired..and still sleeping..n i noe he's nt the bad jaja in the dream..at least i noe he'll be there when i needed him..